Our baby's heartbeat...........

One of the most amazing moments in pregnancy is the first time you hear your child's heart beat. I was at the doctor's office on Monday for my 12th week appointment. Somehow, the last few weeks I had even starting doubting my pregnancy, mostly because I don't even have the typical pregnancy symptoms, no nausea etc....., I have been doing very well, infact overeating and putting on weight while all my friends had lost weight in their first trimester.
Pramod asked me if he should accompany me, it was I who said "No" as the appointment was at 1.30 in the day and I did not want to mess up his work day. I also highly doubted that we would be able to hear anything that early in pregnancy (again going by my friends' experiences). So, I was not expecting anything when the doctor started. But it was truely amazing, out of the world when I got to hear it. It was a very fast 'lub-dub' coming from my tummy............ that was our baby!!!!!
And then it got better, my doctor did an ultrasound and I could see our baby move, his(I want to say his, I really don't know why) tiny limbs, his face and his spinal cord. It was out of the world. Now, I imagine him like that all the time, swimming in my tummy.
I was so excited I could not work the rest of the day. I was calling everybody ... Mayu, Pramod everybody........ Mayu kept saying "Congrats" and I could sense a feeling of relief in her voice and Meghu, she said the funniest thing "I had not imagined a baby growing inside!!" Well, she had known I was pregnant for weeks by now. I wonder what she thot I was pregnant with!?!
I felt really bad for Pramod. He deserved to be there, I had deprived him of pleasure I cannot describe or share with any justice. I did take back some pictures for him and he was delighted to see them but I really hope he will be there next time and hear the heartbeat of OUR BABY!
I am truely enjoying this amazing experience of growing a life inside of me, of creating something that is ours' to share. I feel this is a piece of Pramod inside of me ............ that makes him more mine as I am more his now.......... I cannot explain how this creation has made us a family. Before we were the best of friends and that felt GOOD enough, I could not have asked for more. Now, we are the best of friends and family and I had never imagined I would ever be so happy in my life.
-Myna

Getting to know that I was going to become a dad was a very strange feeling. I had expected it to be one filled with anxiety but in fact there was none. I am a reserved kind of person but this news may be because it was anticipated, did not scare me, in fact filled me with strength and excitement. This was rather inexplicable to me. It sure used to seem like that my friends were taking a lot of responsibility when they decided to become parents, but when it happened to us none of that came to mind. I sometimes attribute it to dumbness or inability to reason out this behaviour, but may be this is a feeling that overcomes all reason. Myna and I used to argue a lot about the lack of any rationale to become a parent (more so myself on the side of rationale). What changed me, I have no clue. I am still searching for the reason.